Haven’t seen Marc in three whole weeks…he’s been away at some family place, gettin’ wasted and smoking weed.
Nice.

Course we’ve been texting, but I’ve been a bit sloppy with my replies on account of the fact that I’m just not much of a texter and they seem a bit hollow when they repeat the same thing OVER and OVER and over etc… know what I mean? Just the usual would be:

“Miss you so so so much, wish you were here, I really love you xxxxx”

Nice enough, and indeed it makes me feel loved, but sometimes I think that’s all that needs to be said and so I will only reply once. 
However, now he’s complaining about me not texting him…

When I text he takes like ages to reply sometimes, but I dunno if that’s because I don’t exactly reply quickly, but I DO have an excuse! I happen to be an extremely-extremely slow texter! The buttons and letters? Yeah they just like fly around infront of my face, leaving me dazed for about ten minutes whilst I’m searching for the ‘B’ or whatever…

 Actually, all of my friends are away atm, minus ONE, and every time I’m with her I just suggest drinking, because it’s a way to pass the time…and makes my mood much better.
Thing is, hiding behind drink (especially since I’m underaged) because I keep getting depressed over everything that’s happened (The Phil thing, I thought it would have gone by now! But no…sometimes I even want to plead for him to take me back. I won’t let myself do that of course.) I need to just somehow let go and be happy with what I HAVE!

But I’m not even sure what I have any more… I’m just getting so confused over everything, can’t get my head straight!

On a brighter note, I bought tickets to a Battle Of The Bands style concert called “Music Quest.” The winning band recieves a thousand squiddlies and they open for some band which I have NEVER EVER EVER heard off. So that should be fun, and it give me something to look forward too. My twin insists I’m gonna meet someone there, I doubt it since I have a feeling most people will be significantly older than us (all 15, tho we can all pass for older..usually) plus I just couldn’t cheat on Marc! No way no how! I am NOT going down that road! I’m happy with Marc anyway, it’s just that we’ve been apart too long for it to be healthy…but that’ll all be fine when we are reunited! I hope.

 HAVE I MENTIONED HOW BORED AND LONELY I AM?!
Also! My parents have totally been on my case! Just the icing on the f*ckin’ cake…*sigh*