Got some mock-mock exam results, they don’t seem too bad so I can just about hold off the suicide for a while, then did my mock-mock-art exam, three hours long..jeez. I thought that was a BIT extensive for a time allowance, but it turns out it was just enough time, since we got a 15 minute break after the first hour which no one expected. I got quite into it, which was a relief since Phil was sitting across the room and I needed something to keep my focus… no we didn’t talk or anything. That’s sorta the problem.

He STILL seems to think I fancie a mate of mine and frankly it is seriously starting to piss me off, the second I got home he started interogating me.

Phil: I see you like J and want him, yeah?
Me: no
Phil: you DO want him
Me: I don’t, he’s a friend..that’s ALL.
Phil: No you love him and want him, I can see it
Me: No I don’t, I could never love him. And I definately don’t want him, that’s sickening.
Phil:I suppose sitting beside him in art , talking n talking , lauging and smiling at him isnt meaning you love him ? You stared at him all the time, but dnt worry you can have him and I’ll be outa ya life soon don’t worry tho.

Ughhh! Come ON! I do NOT fancie him! And Phil was facing AWAY from me for most of the exam! He’s always jumping to conclusions.. why should HE care anyway?! HE has his GIRLFRIEND!

Oh great, now I’m hungry…better go drown my sorrows in chocolate and comfort eat.

No..must..resist! I’ll just keep typing to destract myself.. hmm mm mmm…

Marc has been AWESOME lately, he seems to be the only one who can actually cheer me up and forget everything that’s been going on. But I need to keep in mind that I’m on the rebound right now..so any decisions made have to be thought over.

Then again, everyone is telling me to go for it!

But I don’t even think I DO fancie him, he’s a great, amazin’ guy and all..but I think I just see him as a good mate. I don’t even know anymore!